I loved children and thought this would be o.k. But that wasn't the case. I was scared but excited. I never dreamed what turn my life would take. I remember telling a friend I use to babysit for before I could tell my family. She said I shouldn't wait and to tell my parents right away. I did. It didn't go as I hoped. Not only was the boy not going to marry me but they also wanted me to go away and have the child. My parents urged me to keep the child, but i was so naive I didn't listen to them. As much as I wanted this child I was in no position to keep it. I knew my family could not afford to support me and a child and I wasn't finished with high school. I wanted more for my child. My life as I knew it was falling apart.I was pretty much on my own from then on. I had a friend in Massachuetts who said I could come stay with her and her husband. Since I wasn't going into a girls home , I took the offer. It was a vey scarey and lonely time for me. I had never been away from home let alone out of state by myself. My friend lived in an upstairs apartment in Sturbridge Mass. Nice enough place, but still out of my comfort zone. I was a Florid a girl and not use to the hills not the freezing temps. It got very cold there. We had a dark cold staircase we had to climb to our apartment, and that was no easy task when I was pregnant. I slept in the sewing room next to their bedroom. Not a fun thing to do. She was a little weird and had some problems mentally so it was touchy. But I had no one else. And no money. I thought my boyfriends family was helping but found out that wasn't the case. They left me out in the cold.